Getting excited for Christmas

i'm excited for christmas.
i feel 99% happier after listening to a christmas album and Steps.
now i want christmas.
I must say, last christmas was the worst christmas i've ever had, i ended up crying on christmas day but didn't want to ruin everyone elses day so i kept myself to myself. It was the first christmas without my grandad and it was so noticeable, hopefully this year will be a better one.
i feel like i've lost 5% of my happy mood just from mentioning that now, back to "let it snow, let it snow,let it snow." i think.